Living with choices.

2009-06-21T20:39:00.005+08:00

muahaha.tumblr.com

Er... Muahaha? ;)

2009-06-20T20:33:00.001+08:00

I will change link! I will not use blogger! Wait and see! :@

2009-06-16T21:50:00.016+08:00

Unreal.

Nothing but pictures ;D

My favourite picture :)

Er.... Act cute I know.

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2009-06-15T00:31:00.005+08:00

Just a lie

Chose some questions from Jingheng's blog's quiz. Hahahaha.

3. How was your night last night?
- Bloody hilarious night!!

10.Does it take a lot to make you cry ?
- No. Bloody easy! ;P

14.Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to ?
- Foxel yooooooooo. Mee fen ohhhhh :O

18.Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
- Bloody no. Lolzzzz

21.Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't wish to lose?
- Wow wow. Hell yeah

22.Who are you fav. people to talk to when you're down?
- Foxel yooooooo LOL

24.Are you a patient person?
- Sometimes....

28.Would you go out in public looking like you do right now?
- Woooo hell NO

34.What's the last thing you searched on google?
- Chemical formula for silicon :O

Wahhhhh I wanna sleep but I'm wide awake.

2009-06-14T22:45:00.004+08:00

Till the end, not.

Mum, dad and bro eating durians now. Count me out tq! Don't wanna smell like durian tmr! Muahahaha. I love my mum seriously. Lolz.

I'm so sad! Not really. Because, even though I had the chance to stock up my fridge with chocolates ytd, I didnt do so. Because I'm starting to hate chocolates. Hellll, I need to love chocolates even though they make me fat!

I'm so anti junk food right now. Gosh, bad bad.

-eating MANGO PUDDING now-
yummy. Oh btw, I had a bloody full dinner just now.
Damn bloated! Felt like vomiting. Too delicious I guess! ;D

Taken on the way back to tampines. Noob phone muahahaha. Not mine, brenna's :P

Lousy quality picture I received from a friend I made in the chinese camp. Muahaha, just kidding. Funny people! ;)

I've yet to bath! All sweaty and stinky now. Boooo. I'm damn lazy to get my butts off the chair and take a shower. But I seriously wanna bath right now. I stink seriously!

I need to get my study bug(ok if there's such a term!!!!) back! Omg, can't continue slacking. Slacking slacky slacker slack! Noooooo I needa study. I need to get straight A's, even though it's impossible! I have goals, and I need to do my best to achieve! Ok, rubbish here.

P.S Brenna, I love you. MUAHAHAHAHA BETTY :P:P:P:P

2009-06-14T01:16:00.005+08:00

Night.

I'm talking to 牛郎's group leader and Dean on msn now and I can't stop laughing! Like seriouslyyyyy omfg. I just kept laughing and laughing at every sentence the leader said. And not forgetting hitting the table! God damn cute lah. My new friend ok?! Hahahah!

Must be wondering how come I know 牛郎's group leader. Because I saw him during the camp and thought he's damn cute! So I told Dean he's cool and he added us to a conversation. Wahahah! Like my dream come true. Lol! Muahahaha.

2009-06-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

Ask me if I regret going to the chinese cultural camp. I would still say yes. Why because I saw many things I really do not want to see. And the images still bloody linger(uh wait I don't know if this is the right word but ok.. I dont really care) in my mind.

Plus, it really isn't fun without people I'm close with in my group. It's easy for others to socialise with strangers and make new friends but not for me. I mean, unless I meet very friendly people who would joke with me instead of me joking with them. Ok whatever, it's over it's over. It's still fun afterall.

I missed my mum, and Brenna too :P
Also miss sleeping in my comfortable + huge bed.

Anyway. Went out with my mother on friday. Spent $50 on some dvds I wouldn't have the time to watch. Lolz. We had dinner at Swensens which is so romantic. Just the two of us!

Had tuition today and it was a very pleasant lesson. At night, went to eat dinner with my mum and bro, then to ntuc which we spent $100+ there. Wahaha, everything's so perfect today.

Errrr. I'm lazy to rearrange the photos.

Something from Jingheng's blog again. Hahaha.

1. My ex is still: Still... Er. Attached? Lols.
2. I am listening to: Nothing.
3. Maybe I should: Die :O
4. I love: myself.
5. I don’t understand: Why.
6. I lost: Something.
7. People say: nothing.
8. The meaning of my screen name is: Waiting. lol
9. Love is: funny. hilarious. but awesome.
10. Somewhere, someone is: crying.
11. I will always: by who I want to be.
12. Forever seems: impossible
13. I will never ever want to: see ghost.
14. My cellphone: I wish I dont have one.
15. When I wake up in the morning: I hope it would be a good day ahead.
16. I get annoyed when: people treat me badly. OH WELL
17. Parties are: what I've never attended
18. My pet(s) is(are):
19. Kisses are the best when: it's with your lover? Lol
20. Today: I went for tuition.
21. Tomorrow I: will go for more tuition
22. I really want: something.
23.I really want to ask: why this question number.

2009-06-08T17:34:00.005+08:00

You said move on, but where do I go?

I'll be away for 3 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gonna miss xiao bolster and my super comfortable blanket + bed~
And of course my familyyyy and this house awwww

One thing on my mind - How do I pack my bag T_____T

From Jingheng's blog ;D

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now.

1. Cherish everything you have before you lose them~
2. I wonder who do you like now :p
3. Give me my freedom plzzzz
4. I'll be the best tutor for you HAHAHAHA
5. Thanks for the encouragement everytime!
6. Sorry but I still love you
7. You know, it's just words out of anger
8. I'm so envious of your life~
9. You're such a copycat woo
10. Your english is lousy and you act like a princess

NINE things about yourself.

1. I do not like to make new friends
2. I love money because money makes the world go round
3. I am not skinny :(
4. I am trying to be optimistic
5. I am kinda tall lol
6. My hair is fabulous lol lol
7. I have a lousy complexion boo~
8. I am very shy trust me
9. I am gullible I think so?

EIGHT things you look for in a boyfriend/Girlfriend.

1. Height and figure lol lol
2. Know how to cook or not
3. Looks especially eyes and hair~
4. Character duh
5. Caring or not
6. Sweet or not
7. Love me or not
8.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Friends + Family + Love = 1 thing
2. Should I eat? lol
3. Why am I so fat -_____-
4. Can I don't bath today? lol
5. Erm l4d lol lol lol
6. what should i do now~
7. Ghosts lols

SIX things you do before you fall asleep.

1. URINE! It's a must lol
2. On music~
3. Set alarm~
4. Kiss my bolster lol
5. Tell myself to sleep lol
6. Fall asleep lah!!

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment.

1. Family
2. Everyone I think is impt to me lol
3. Erm my softoys.
4. Myself
5.

FOUR things you really enjoy doing.

1. Sleeping
2. Watching tv
3. Losing weight lol lol
4. Laughing

THREE things you absolutely hate:

1. Ghost and Insects _l_
2. Crying *ahem*/ being sad
3. Er..... losing things/people

TWO places you want to visit.

1. London omg hongkong OMG
2. new zealand/malaysia/taiwan/japan

ONE thing you are afraid of.
2 can? lol

1. Dying
2. GHOST

2009-06-07T21:19:00.018+08:00

Life to death

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H1N1
CASE
WOOO

Ermmmmmmmm ok hi. My blog is back, right. Have been feeling a hell lot better, compared to thursday and friday. All thanks to my dearest friend, you know who you are. If it weren't for this friend, I would still be in my super depressed state. I love you so much! (as a friend XD). Thanks a lot, really!!! :D

张清芳 is the sexxxxxxx. Her songs are old, she is old. Lol. But her voice like damn fuckinggggg nice. Just heard her singing on tv. Lol! Gahhhhh nice nice nice can. Ok lah, don't think young people will like her though~ Hahahah k not funny.

Spent my weekend going tuition and watching drama. Wah swear watching drama(s) kill time. If not sleep. That's even better. Rather than stoning and doing nothing. I'll only end up thinking about unnecessary stuffs. Gahhh. Z crap. My appetite is still not back to normal yet. When is it coming back to me T______T
I NEED TO EAT ONE YOU KNOW?

Maths remedial tmr woo
the time even more wooooooo (9 am T.T)
chinese camp on tuesday woooo even more wooo

I'll miss my dearest mahtherrrrrrr :(

2009-06-02T17:11:00.011+08:00

love

Causeway point is boring shit. Spend my tuesday morning taking a one hour ride to woodlands, walk around, have lunch and another one hour ride back to tampines. Ate cake for 'tea break' read touching stories and happily sobbing away. All alone at home. Not doing what I should be doing, but doing what I want to do. Blasting music, searching for handsome guys on the net(kidding).

That's what life should be. No?

Anyway. Yesterday's night, perfect. Perfect ambience, perfect food, perfect food, perfect time. Having fun talking about the places our family used to go, the things we used to do together, talking about life, studies, love, money, past. Still love the way life used to be. When I was still a young girl, life is all about playing, enjoying, and having fun.

Well. The fact that I'm already 15 will not change.
The fact that my parents are aging, fact that life is not a bed of roses, that life is all about overcoming obstacles and being stronger by the end of the day, that life is all about everchanging emotions, everchanging friendships, but not everlasting love will not change.

-

2009-06-01T17:33:00.010+08:00

Find love, and leave

Yesterday was my Mum's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM (i love you!)

Lol no. I mean, SO I headed over to Swensens to buy her cake with Irene. And.... :P It was a big whole in my pocket. But... Worth it for my dearest mother xD. Bought all my things and went home. She stayed till 10+ until my father comes home to cut the cake. -Next time be earlier THANKS-

Hate taking pictures at night. Flash/without flash the same ugly thing. Well. We could have cut the cake in the afternoon you know. But. :D:D:D:D:D:D

-.-

enjoyed myself ytd though. Forgetting the fact that I skipped tuition. Now I have no idea how to balance equations. Booooo~~~~

went to play l4d with Xiaopang and Jingheng today.
Saw quite a lot of people there. Good thing or bad thing?

Parted with them around 5 and went home.
Now... Mum wants me to clear all the clothings on my bed. Gahhh lazy lazy. My eyes are hurting because of the contact lens. I so want to sleep now but will be going out for big feast later. To celebrate mum's birthday~

2009-05-28T22:03:00.007+08:00

My mum just told me our family doctor "discovered" the first H1N1 case in Singapore. Cool. Anyway. It was just one H1N1 case in Singapore yesterday, but today, there were 3 more. So... Does that means Singapore is in danger, that anyone in Singapore, your closed ones or even those you do not know, have a higher possibility of contracting this disease? More and more incurable disease going around in the world. The world is coming to an end~

Back to today. Was suppose to morning call Jingheng at 7, and Irene at 7.30 but I overslept because I accidentally turned off the alarm. So all 3 of us overslept. Lol. Went to tmart mac to do our elearning together. But.... I thought the elearning thing is shit so didnt really finish everything, and we started taking pictures with Jingheng's webcam. Too bad I cant post it here, but we laughed too hard till we were warned. Wait not we. Only the two of them :P

From Jingheng's blog, "Left Mac at 1 and went over to Kopitiam for fun joy laughter peace and food. We didn't feel like returning home. So we decided to go over to the beach!!! RANDOM MUCH?!?!?!?"

Jingheng went home to put down his stupid laptop while I went home with Irene. Met again on bus 17 and we headed to the beachhhhh. My camera died halfway so we had to use our phone's camera. How sad.

Took more pictures and left the place to eat our dinner at JustAcia. Lol cool place. Irene dropped her glass mug there and the workers had to clear the mess. Noob :p

Took 21 back to tamp afterthat. Talked about each other's bad points and stuffs. I'm so perfect heh heh! Just for the time being. Lol.

I look very cheap here. Lol. But nevermind!!!!!!

Found out that 28 weeks later is a M18 show. -_____- how can a show like this be m18. Anyway. I wanna watch SAW 1,2 and 3! But where can I watch it. Hm. And omg Jingheng told me there's 28 months later, coming out soon I guess. God damn cool. 28 days, weeks, months later. I want I want!

Right. Something "great" just happened and I lost all my mood.

2009-05-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

Ms Tan showed us the movie 28 weeks later and we've been watching every eng lesson, finally finished it today. Not that I'm really sadistic but I love the show even though it's gory content. Or you can say I loved the show because of it's gory and gruesome content. Ahahah. Swear it's damn nice.

Decided to go for the chinese camp, after MUCH consideration. The sad thing is we're needed to wear long pants and shoes as their dress code I suppose. I haven't wore a jeans or long pants for about 2 years. No joke. For shoe.... got no choice but to purchase a new one. Slippers please T_____T

I'll just stick to this skin temporary. Feel like changing link too -yawns-

Writing rubbish here. Can't wait for holidays to arrive. Though I'll be like damn broke, not bored. It's not gonna be a boring holiday! Wondering if I should go for the water purification thing. Gahhh.

Alright I shall end this crap with a sentence.
Byebye I love school....not.

2009-05-24T21:59:00.005+08:00

The reason behind whatever.

You see, I'm still gonna continue with life NO MATTER WHAT. I swear, I'm not gonna let these friendship stuffs affect me. It's not gonna bring me down, it's not working. I am weak, no, I used to be weak, but right now, I am gonna be strong. I'm not going to cry anymore, no more breaking down. Do whatever you want to me, and I don't need you as my friend. Maybe without you, I'll be happier. Thanks for betraying me, and I'll treat this as a lesson. Now I know that I'm not good at seeing who's good, and who's bad. Thanks for helping me discover my weakness. Trust me, you'll never see my tears anymore. I, swear.

Right. Enough of these nonsense. Finally I was able to wake up early this morning. Went out to meet Brenna around 2.30 > Trained to Simei > Repair her phone > Buy assessment books > Buy/rent storybooks > Tuition > Home.

1. Finished the whole of X FAMILY. Can't bear to part with this drama! Damn nice. Glad I didnt cry during the last episode. Normally, people cry at the last episode, but for me, I'll cry at like every single episode except the last one. I am so the very special. :D

2. L4D is installed on my computer! Nice or what. It's not even scary at all lor! Lol ok... No one said it was scary. Well oh well. I'm just attracting attention ok?

3. I ate mac againnnnn. See, I'm trying hard to gain weight. GAH SO FAKE. Gaining weight would be the last thing I'll do. Oh no wait. Seeing ghosts would be the LAST thing. :D

4. I'm not afraid of school tomorrow. I'll take anything that falls on me, because I am not vulnerable. I'm prepared, for anything. Yes I am.

Time for a change. Really. A thorough change.
I dont act, I am who you see. Just that sometimes, I pretend.

2009-05-23T19:41:00.012+08:00

It's a two way thing

If the chinese camp is on the 9th, 10th and 11th of June.

I dont know, if I should go for the chinese camp. Or go for math extra classes. It'll be a disadvantage to me, if I forgo the extra classes. I need to attend the extra classes, in order to do better in both maths.

But. I wanna go for the camp too. It might not be really fun and "memorable", but it will help in my chinese, I suppose. And since I still, have an interest in chinese.. Bahhhh really fustrated. Plus. There's chemistry remedial on the 9th.

There are so many days in the June holidays yet everything happens to fall on the 9/10/11th.
Unlucky or what. Fated or what. Irritating or what?!

Urgh. I kind of lost the 'ability to wake up early' recently. No longer able to wake up early during the weekends. Early as in, 8am. I'll turn off the alarm and go back to sleep, till 12 noon -.- But anyway. I love being at home, alone.

I just wanna concentrate on my studies and not think of anything else. But it gets very irritating whenever you wanna sit down and focus, your mind just gets distracted by other things, you just cant focus, your mind just drift away to a place where you're not supposed to be in.

I wanna have no responsibility, no burden, no worries, nothing that will affect my mood, my life, so life could be better, so life could be more enjoyable, so I. Could be happier.

What's the date today? And... so?

I'M EATING MAC TONIGHT.

2009-05-20T21:21:00.010+08:00

Disappointing results, duh? But nah, not gonna be affected. I'm never gonna be sad no matter how sucky my results are. I've already got many things to worry, not going to add another thing to further heavy my burden. Right?! RIGHT.

This is boring. Not looking forward to school just by thinking, no. Feeeeeeling. About the lessons we'll be having. Like for once I don't wanna be in the classroom!?!?! This is so not the right mindset I should be having.. But whatever~

Mum didnt asked about my results so I didnt mention a single thing to her. Oh well, not really important to her anyway, I suppose so....? It's not really worth boasting about too. So.... hahaha, wait till she ask about it.

I need more time to rush through all my recorded shows and drama! Got to finish x family by next week to return Priscilla. Plus! There's tuition this saturday which I'm really not looking forward to, too, also I wouldn't be able to finish x family. Tuition ah tuition..... What's wrong with me man. I got to stop thinking like this if not I'll be real dead.

AND.

I hate myself for being so useless and weak. Couldn't believe what I actually did today. I mean like, heyyyy it's an extremely trivial matter and I could actually - URGH. I always thought I'm strong enough to handle any thing, until today. Now I don't know where to place my face. In the toilet bowl? Hm.. Maybe. Or in the rubbish bin.

Just couldn't stop thinking about it. Again and again, I asked myself wtf happened to me, why am I like that. I really don't know how to face the world now. Shit me for being so useless.
Ahhhhhhh hate this hate this -_____________-

2009-05-18T15:09:00.002+08:00

So what if there's people out there who hates me, and you know, 'gossip' about me all the time? I don't live for them, I live for myself. I gotttt to and must, learn that not everyone gets only love. They get hated too. Like how I love and hate certain people. So... I'll just ignore them and carry on with life, no use being affected. Right? Right.

I'm inhaling Dad's marlboro menthol light -____________-
Irritating. No one's online..... I wanna go out, but on the other hand, lazy. I have a place to go, but I don't wanna step out of this house.

Gah, shall return to my NEAT room right after this.
Enough of the smoke.

I wanna eat 201's carrot cake T______T

School tomorrow. Will we be getting back our papers?
LIKE DUH THEN WHAT ELSE. OK LET ME ANNOUNCE I AM NOT AFRAID OF THE PAPER. I AM NOT AFRAID TO SEE THE MARKS ON THE PAPER BECAUSE I AM BRAVE I AM NOT AFRAID.

joke.
NEVERMIND I'M PREPARED. PREPARED FOR THE WORST KAY.

2009-05-17T20:10:00.012+08:00

Could finally breathe properly after opening the window that
hasn't been opened for almost a year in my room!
Cleaned the dirty window panes and glass too.

I'm so hardworking, yes no yes?
Threw all the bottles and packed all the papers.
Hopefully my room will stay this way for months!

Like impossible only -________-

During my birthday~

This year's birthday was spent in a very simple way,
unlike last year, 3 days straight of going out.
Really unlucky to have your birthday falling in the midst of examinations.

But still, thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday,
and all the presents I got, and the people that celebrated for me.

Gonna go develop all the photos taken that day when I have the time.
Oh did I mention my mum bought me a new phone?!
I love every part of it! Except the colour, red -______-

So... To sum everything up,
I'm happy because I've got a picture taken with my family :)
And I'm sad because I'm really disappointed, by something.

But nevermind, I'm a understanding person.
There's still next year, right? Right.

Exams are over, what awaits me will be the devastating results :(((

2009-05-10T22:00:00.006+08:00

Welllll, I have to say today has been a rather good day, compared to the past few days. Keep this going please?!! I'm so proud of myself can. I'm like still very energetic despite sleeping only a few hours. Let me share my wonderful dayyyy :D

5am-8am : Half asleep half awake T_____T
8am-11am: Eating mac and playing pool with Dean and Jingheng.
They bought me my macdonald in the morning as my breakfast! Like thankkkks a lot man. And I wanna emphasise that Jingjing is GREAT! *Forced to.... :X* Hahaha,but they're really nice.
Slept for about less than an hour and spend my afternoon watching tv.
4pm-7pm: Met Brenna and went for tuition
7pm-9pm: Eating and "shopping" with Brenna (wahhh,how I wished we were really shopping) at tm. We ate ramen(my first time eating :p suaku I know)

I just realised that my day isn't spent with my mother. lOl

Anyway, Juexin passed me my birthday present and it's the dvd I always wanted! I realllllly love it a lot. Arrrgh, thanks a lot man :)

Didn't manage to stay till 6 am yesterday. Ooops! But still not bad lah, 5 am. Thanks to Jingjing, Dean and Mankit for accompanying me through the night. Haha.

I am still wide awake now ok? I am so cool.
Tomorrow will be another better day, hopefully.... :D

2009-05-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

MUM I LOVE YOU IT'S MOTHER'S DAY.

Just watched the show Hairspray. It's fucking nice!
It made me smile like hahahahaha you know. Not that exaggerating but it's
a really nice show.

It's Mother's Day ~~tomorrow~~later and I don't wanna stay at home.
But I'm having tuition at 5, which means I'll be out around 4.
Why the hell am I having tuition tomorrow..
Asked mum to celebrate at night, but by the time tuition end
it'll be very late. So.... yawns.

Then... monday Mum will be bringing me out to buy cake
and maybe my present? Heh. I really love celebrating my birthday
with my family if I still have. Hahaha, aiya with Mum will do. :)

I got no plans on tuesday, and I don't really care. Serious.
It's just a birthday, a normal day, an exam day. Nothing much.
Not being emotional or whatever fuck. Just.... hah I don't know!

The only thing I want is to be happy that day, real happiness.
I don't have to laugh much. But just, smile. From the bottom of my heart.

Anyway, I'm planning to stay until 6 am, then see Mum off to work
then go to sleep till around afternoon then go for tuition. :D

Have been repeating the same song over and over again and
I'm still not sick of it! First time listen to one song for so long.
hahahaha, last time I'll get sick of a song after listening to it the whole day.

Played l4d and CS and littlefighter2(lol)
on my bro's computer this afternoon. Heehee, so fun.
Which also means I didn't study again. Slept for 2 hours~
Must must must study tomorow ohhhhh

I will be able to stay up till 6! Trust me :D:D:D:D:D

2009-05-08T21:21:00.007+08:00

One two

Did not read or study a single thing today,not at all totally. This feeling
is nice, really. Even though I spent my afternoon just by sitting on sofa, I
won't treat it as wasting time.

But well,of course got to start studying tomorrow.
Soon, very soon ok. Exams will be over and I'll relax relax and relax.
But I swear I won't neglect my books. I'll still study, but not that often.
I don't want the same old thing to happen for SA2.

I have the ugliest handwriting among all woman. Swear
I hate my handwriting totally. But never thought of improving it.
Lol. My handwriting changes as my mood changes. Serious. Just realised it
today only. Anyway, I'm so gonna fail physics.

I'm tired. I wanna sleep but I'm lazy.

Changes

flirt with any guy i see
change of heart
can't care less whether I've got friends
don't mind being misunderstood
don't mind being hated by anyone
learning how to reject and say no
not afraid of standing in a crowd alone
not afraid of doing things alone
being more thick-skinned
being more hard-hearted
going anywhere as and when i like
stop being a good person
start being someone no one wants to befriend with
choosing different people to go out with everyday
saying bye and hi anytime i feel like it

Everytime I see the scar on my leg,I'd started blaming myself.
I'll hate myself for being so stupid, I'll ask myself why I was so stupid then,
why couldn't I be more firm and just say No.
I'm not affected by the physical appearance. If I've gotten this scar
by doing something I'll never regret, it's definitely worth it, I wouldn't
mind getting more scars too. But it's something, that is really worth laughing at.
It might be a very small matter to others, but it's a really big thing for me.

This is definitely not the life I want.

2009-05-03T19:07:00.007+08:00

Everyone needs more time, but if they had more time,
they'll still want more time, more and more time.
Time is never enough for human, human will never be contented. :)

Not sure if it's my problem or what, just can't seem to accept the kind of typing Dean or Jingheng uses. Those, "Ahhhaha you suck la ok" kind you know? Or, "You so bad don't friend you le lah." kind of communication. I used to type with caps all the way, or those very hyper kind of typing, but not anymore. Just feel very sian -.- So...sorry Dean and Jingheng, not that I'm having an attitude problem, or I'm not in the mood. Maybe tired and lazy will be my reason. Or rather,excuse? Hah. Or maybe I've grown up. Cheyyyyyy

The amount of cups/bottles in my room.
If only there's a maid in my house,then I don't have to bother about all
the housework la seriouslyyyy. Bloody lazy to carry all the rubbish and cups.

Shall find a right time to spring clean my room urghhhh insects everywhere

Omg, I can't live without my mp3 now. I'll feel uneasy without it.
I seriouslyyyyy need a new phone. Any suggestions?! I'm allowed to change my phone but I just don't know what phone I want ahhhhhhhhh

Mum is sick of hearing me saying, "Ma I want change phone :)"
-woooo i smell something nice. Bbq downstairs!- Oh anyway, congrats to me I 'found' my appetite back. I ate like damn a lot today.

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Again tmrrrrrr.
Wonder if I should be happy or not!

2009-05-02T08:48:00.004+08:00

Very good. I woke up at 8.05 today, but my designated time is 8. -.-
Can't believe i slept at 11 yesterday night, when I was supposed to sleep at 1.
Urrrrrgh, I'm getting tired very easily, and my appetite's getting smaller.

I WANNA EAT A LOT I WANNA SLEEP LITTLE AH BAHHHHH

Fine. I shall get some nice songs into my phone and shut this damn computer down
and go studyyyyy. Boooooks here I come don't go away thanks.

I'm not motivated to study can laaaa wtfffffffff.

Wait. Is studies important? I've been thinking about this question weeks ago
and I'm still thinking about it. I can't seem to get a satisfied answer :@

2009-05-01T21:48:00.003+08:00

Feeling like the happiest girl

Woke up at 6 and went back to sleep,
then kept resetting my alarm again and again.

Hate this habit I always have when there's no school.
Just can't seem to wake up on time. -.-
Got a text from Brenna saying she just woke up, and we'll meet at 10.
So... obviously there wasn't time to do any work. Just daydream then went out.

Went to tamp1 to walk around alone as I needa get a book,
while waiting for her. Hey I went alone, someone please praise me.
Got my book and headed to meet Brenna then to tuition.
Getting sick of tuition because I can't seem to concentrate everytime. Damn sian.

After tuition went to airport to study, hahahaha study..
Went back to tamp around 5 to eat piekia (^^)
as Brenna has the I dont know what's that called.
Coupons/vouchers/whatever you call it? Thanks! It's very nice muahaha.

Bought breakfast and dinner and went home.

I'm like so bored now... Trying to leave the computer. Lols..
Byebyebyebye exams is just 4 days away :D

2009-04-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

Leaving me high and dry

I don't understand how human mind works. It's complicating, very. Urgh.
Well, wanted to stay online from 10 to 12 later. But nah, decided not to. Fucking
disappointed, for reasons I do not know. -.-
But yeah, rather replenish the sleep I've sacrificed the past two days.
I'm so damn tired now. Just saw darker dark circles under my eyes. -______-

8 more days to exams. I'm very very not prepared.
Getting distracted very easily. Very, very easily. I wonder what am I doing.
Wanna do well for exams, yet not making the effort to fucking concentrate and focus.

Really don't understand why I'm onlining more often than I should.
Exams are drawing near, seriously near. This is crazy.
I don't wanna switch on the computer anymore. :(

Bloody enrichment tomorrow. Zzzzzz.

2009-04-27T19:11:00.004+08:00

:)

Kammy, I owe you $1. Remind me tomorrow! :D

Blogging is so fun! Can't believe I'm blogging and onlining more often now. Exams are like 10 days away and I'm so excited. My physics is still as lousy as shit, and I'm still lost in lala land for Amaths. I don't wanna fail any papers for this SA.

The papers we took back today = best.
Mum say because I've been putting science and maths as my top priority,
hence neglecting the other subjects, hence getting 3/12 for social studies.
Good job la. And a 22/40 for physics. I can't believe the guy who got 40/40 in 304.
He's nuts, crazy, insane. Ok. Or maybe god damn clever and hardworking.
I'll treat all my friends to swensens one day
if I ever score full marks for physics test ;) Serious!

I'm so happy today, very very happy.
Maybe that explains why I'm super hyper.
Definitely not because of 'over stress', hahaha. No stress no stress.

I wanna eat prawns now. T___________T
Prawns are the nicest food on earth can. Super duper nice.
So grateful I'm not allergic to prawns. <33333 prawns kkkkkk :P

Off to bath *MUACKS*
Ah great. Something held me back. Urghhhhh.

2009-04-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

I still wanna say I'm really sorry.

I'm so dead I'm so dead I'm so dead I'm so dead I'm so dead.

I swear I hate chinese can. I can't believe myself lor. One who used to love chinese that much, determined to go higher mother tongue, to top the level every year, hereby declare that mother tongue is the shittest subject I've even taken.
Not like I'm having problems coping with it or I'm stress because of it. I started detesting MT eversince the fucking "Strength" project lor. Urgh, shall not get angry at meaningless things.

GREAT! The stupid "Red Star Big Prize" (direct translation lah) show is finally over. I hate that show. What's so nice to see about who's the best!? Right, I know it's SUPER interesting for certain people, but not for me. Wait. Why do I still hear the music. Okay, it's not finish yet. Zz..

I wanna try not sleeping for maybe 48 hours someday! But of course during the holidays or something. I don't wanna die in school.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING AHHHHHHH

Irene kammy! Remember what you have to do tomorrow okay?! ^^

I'm rotting againnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Bye! School tomorrow. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

2009-04-25T21:00:00.012+08:00

Hah great I blog as and when I feel like it.

Still deciding whether to stay up late tonight because I'll be out from 12 to I don't know what time to study study and tuition.

Super random and lame pictures I took while trying to study but apparently can't if not I wouldn't be here hmmmm and I love my message tone now short and sweet anybody wanna listen it's cute fullstop

I'm such a good person to include captions to make it look less meaningless :O

^ My birthday!

^ hahahah if you know me well you understand this picture

^ very nice song kkk

^ a sweet I can't live without

^ axl gave this to me, I dont think he even remember! :@

^ very very nice ~~

^ i love my fridge okay

^ my newly bought calculator~~

:p told you the pictures are super random and lame.
So bored, there's nothing for me to do now, nothing to entertain me.
Don't wanna go online because I'll get stucked infront of the computer for hours.
I wish I had a maid to do the housework for me, that will be superbly great.

My brother just told me something even more random.
"My friend say among the best season of the american idol is the first season, cos the winner is Kelly Clarkson(ok I didn't know she took part in that. well I've never seen one episode or american idol too..) and her album's still selling and hot~" lmao.

I'M ROTTING.
I DON'T WANNA DO NOTHING AND STONE URGH.
I DON'T WANNA SLEEP.
IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN DO?
I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING HOMEWORK.
I DON'T WANNA ONLINE.
I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW!
URGH URGH URGH.

Nevermind, byebye!!!!

2009-04-25T18:58:00.004+08:00

I'm back again, hahaha.

My macdonald delivery came 15 minutes after I ordered! Efficient much. There's this new habit I wanna keep, that is to stop being lazy to bath. I can't stand being dirty, but I'm just too lazy to bath! Every weekend I'll only "bear to" bath around 9. That is so disgusting. But I just kept telling myself, "Aiya later then bath la, still early."

Heh heh, finished eating my mac mac. Wearing a boxer now and I feel so comfortable. I think the most comfortable bottom in this world are boxers.

Anyway, glad the problem between me and Dean is solved, wanna apologise to those that heard me grumbling about it on friday, I take back all my words! :p Didn't really think through my brain before speaking.
That's why I say, Silence is Gold(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

When you think you're left with nothing, think about others that are even less fortunate. I got to be grateful that I'm able to study, I'm able to make friends, I'm able to eat and sleep well, and I'm living under a roof.

:)

2009-04-20T17:30:00.014+08:00

Just a quick post! :)

Great. I have been so busy that I dont have time to even use the computer.
So I'm home early today and that explains why I'm typing this~
Have been given 6 maths papers that are to be completed by 30 April.
10 more days from today, totally cool.

Some of the pictures on Axl's birthday.
Had Sakae that day, nice meal. $114 for the 7 of us, hahaha.
Took a whole bunch of pictures too, still owe them. *cries*

2009-04-11T19:11:00.005+08:00

Thanks for getting my attention

I'm supposed to be in -sings 约定while showering- mode. lol,but I'm blogging!

Just came across this blog and I'm damn amazed at his CA results.
A1, A1 and still A1! Crazy, I so wanna be like him man.. :(

Well well, met Juexin, Jingting and Shuman to go over to Weiling's house
for our MT project yesterday. Couldn't believe I was late. Like WOW WEITING
IS LATE FOR 30 MINUTES. Mind you I'm always the earliest :P Made a mess in Weiling's
kitchen. Hahaha,I didnt contribute any mess because I'm so gentle and shy that I
don't even dare move around in her house. So true yeah?

Thanks for the place and help Weiling!
Your room + kitchen + living room is soooo pretty!
Oh and the book too! Will return you as soon as I finish reading. :)

Left at 1 to look for Mushroom(dean calls him Fungi so I shall call him Mushroom :p)
at the playground nearby. Held his hands and walked together to small mac to look
for Dean. OMG NO PLEASE. Hahahaha. Just kidding! Irene came too afterthat.

RIGHT I'M LAZY TO ELABORATE EVERYTHING.
It was a nice day, though without Axl.. Because he can't join us. Heh.
But I had sore shoulders and legs after reaching home :(

For today,was late for Amaths remedial(just a few minutes).
I wanna be late for every meeting starting from today. Lol.
After remedial headed to indoor sports hall to play basketball,then rushed home
to change and out again for tuition.

And what...I thought I'm the first to
reach, but because I couldn't find the block and I went to the 6th floor(I
forgot what floor the tutor's house is lol)....I BECAME THE LAST TO REACH.
Aww so sad.. Went home after tuition. :)

2009-04-07T17:08:00.005+08:00

Trusting no one else

The coming 29 days will be a tough battle for me!
Will be starting my -12 am sleep 6 am wake up- plan from today onwards.
Anyone wanna join me? :p

Played basketball for about 2 hours yesterday and I AM WET TOO. ^^
Shall show you the picture of back later on. Mum's first reaction was
"AIYOOOO, WHY SO WET!!!" when I reached home. But damn shiok lah.

So I slept at 12.10am yesterday, and woke up at 5.40am today to meet Dean and Irene
for breakfast. I ate my breakfast like a Queen this morning *BURPS*
I lost my own protractor this morning. And I lost Dean's this morning too. :(

Irene and Axl went home after school, Dean went some other places to have sex.
So I'm ALONE. Wanted to eat fries right after school ended. SO OF COURSE I WENT
TO BUY. Not ALONE duh...It will be a miracle if I went alone. So asked Junhao to
accompany me. Thanks ah, If not I wouldn't be enjoying my fries now :P

Parted with him afterthat. The moment I stepped out of the....what do you call that.
Erm, no-shelter place. It started to rain. Sway much?! So was caught in the rain.
So sad, hope I dont get sick. Bumped into Osbourne(sp), Roy and Chuhui at the bus
stop and we went home together. :)

Mum had to work last minute, and I dont know where my brother has gone to.
So I'm all alone at home! Got to settle my own dinner too. Sad.
But I'm enjoying my life alone at home. I know you're jealous!!!!

ANYWAY I'M DAMN SAD, YOU KNOW WHY? THERE'S MOTHER TONGUE PAPER 2, AND
EXAMS FOR THE COURSE WORK GUYS ON MY BIRTHDAY. T__________T

End of today. (Y)

2009-04-04T20:45:00.003+08:00

Stuck in the past, stuck on you

Had a very sucky time in school on Friday. Urgh.
Took physics test after school.
I know myself whether I'll pass or fail. So..no point talking 'bout it.
AND Sorry to Irene, Axl and Dean for letting you guys wait for me for so
long (according to Dean's newly-made blog)..

Things got somewhat better after meeting them.
Met Jingheng at tm's cinema and we decided to watch Unborn.
Or is it The Unborn, not sure. But I dont think the show is scary.
To me, horror movies are those that will keep me thinking and imagining
about what was played in the movie. Like,I'll be scared to encounter
the same thing as it was in the movie. So, Unborn/The Unborn isn't scary to me.
Even though mirrors are involved.. It's not as scary as what Axl told me
about the -little boy & mirror- thing lah. Lol. Anyway, I needed the toilet halfway.
So Me, Irene, Dean and Jingheng went together,leaving Axl alone. Hahaha. Wait thats
not the point. Irene saw something she shouldn't see. Not ghost, something! XDXD

After the movies we went to North Cc for basketball. Nice night. :)
Had a match with Jingheng and Axl vs Me and Dean. We won. HEEHEEHEE
Dean went home afterthat,leaving the 4 of us(including Irene). Played percentage.
Jingheng suck to the core :P Axl too. I am the Champion of Champions.
Nah,just kidding. Hahahaha,I am the noobest between the 3 guys lah.

Axl went to meet his friend,while Jingheng and Irene accompanied me to get
my porridge. If I have a choice, I wouldn't eat porridge. So bland. But I'm sick :(
Waiting for the day I can eat fries and drink bubble tea freely!!!

For today, dragged myself out of bed even though it's already 10am. Gosh.
Mum bought beancurd as breakfast for me. ^^
Met Brenna at small mac, then we headed to Yoshinoya. I CAN'T EAT.
Omg,what a torture! But it's still so nice being with her, hearing her rant about
everything. So now we're in the same tuition, we can talk every week! :D

We got lost on our way to the tutor's house,and we were late for half an hour.
Lol. The whole of my back was wet! WHOLE BACK. (this two sentences sounds and looks
wrong. But I dont know how can I say it. -.-) And I swear it was damn hot.
Had around 2 hours of tuition. Brenna and Juexin understands Logarithms now.
But I dont. Why am I so stupid?! Gahhh,save me please..

Talked about humans on our way back to tampines. Lol. Juexin alighted,then Me and
Brenna took pictures. Hahaha,parted with her and went home.

Mum cooked dinner There were only 3 dishes for me because I can't eat many stuffs.
I'M SICK :O I drank chocolate milktea today because I couldn't resist the temptation ^^
Talked to Juexin on the phone for quite long after I reached home. :)

Nice day for me. :)

There are too many hyprocrites and "two-headed snakes" around me.
Many people doing things only for their own interest,
not considering the feelings of others.
I don't understand why they are like that. I mean,isn't it tiring to pretend all the time?
Why can't they just be their normal self? Is it that hard to be who you are?
Too many angels in disguise in this world.
You never know who will stab you in the back suddenly.

I need to change my character.
I have to stop speaking so sarcastically(if there is such a word......).
I realise that not everyone can accept the way I talk.
Sometimes when I'm just joking,they tend to take it seriously.
And then start hating me. I need to stop being so self-centred,
thinking that everyone can understand my 'joke'. I need to stop being so indecisive,
asking others for opinions and changing my decisions every now and then.
I've been judging the people around me wrongly. Not just one person,but many.
God, I suck at seeing who's the good one and who's the bad one.
You can't know how this person is by looking at their outside,or just by listening
to stories of them. Thats what they meant by "not jugdging a book by its cover".
But can you really understand someone even if you know him/her?
You can't know someone inside out totally, I guess.
I want to learn how to look at things at different perceptions,not just one view..

I spend one hour only on this I-think-its-very-long post. Lols.

2009-04-02T17:50:00.004+08:00

If I could find another you.

Mr Yeong didn't allowed me to go to my third home - the toilet aka ladies.
He just gave me a, "Why must you go at my period?" Because I didnt want to
'go home' during mother tongue, and I need to 'go home' just nice at 9 am.

Neither did Ms Ang allowed me to "go home". Until I asked for the second time
which is after approx 90 minutes have past, 10.30 am. I almost pee-ed on
the spot thankyou. Wonder why teachers doesn't allow their students to go to the toilet.
For Mr Yeong's case. I know I ask him everyday. I mean like, everyone needs the toilet
everyday right. At least once? Just because I'm extraordinary and have to visit
the toilet freeeequently?! How nice if I had a pass, a pass that writes "This girl needs
the toilet very often, please allow and excuse her if she asks for permission."
Ok,I don't know how to phrase this thing properly with my lousy english.
But, wow, it'll really nice and cool.....

I just spent 10 minutes on the 2 paragraphs above. What's taking Mum so long
to bath?!?! My throat hurts aaaaa lottttt when I sneeze.
Gahhhh, recover please dear throat. I want to eat spicy food! :(

I missed the physics test today. Mr Goh said that the test will start at 2,
yet he came earlier than 2. I went back to class earlier than 2 too! But he was
earlier. Grrr. Now I have to stay back again tomorrow for the test.
Walaoooooooooo not fairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I went to the school's indoor sports hall today ^^ Very beautiful.......
Mum's out, byebye! Off for my anything-also-cannot-eat-dinner. T____T

2009-04-01T15:08:00.008+08:00

Appreciate everything you have, please.

I'm doing nothing now,hoping I could turn to the dining table behind me to
start doing homework. But apparently I cant because I'm still typing.. Can't
stop coughing eversince I reach home. -Irritating-

April fool 'plan' was to swop classes with 304. They were in our class,and we're
in theirs. Juexin planned it,hahaha. Ms Quek's face = Classic :P
But had to change back afterwards, not fun at all.

Had quite a hard time leaving the school, but still managed to do so in the end.
"Abandoned" Irene, Axl and Dean today as I had something on^^
Wonder where they are, having fun without me. (huu huu -axl)..

Anyway, an apology to Jingheng for getting a punch from Dean.
I think it should be very painful,with such a huge red mark :X Sorry Ah heng!

Byebye,got to go now!

Before I go, here's something to share : I am sick! _l_

Damn it. My throat hurts everytime I swallow my saliva
Let alone talk or eat. But I'm still eating many things wooohoooo
Feeling so heaty inside, head's aching. Plus I have to visit the toilet very frequently.

T______________T

Everyday I'd ask myself the same question, "does it still affect you?"
All the answers I get is a Yes. It's haunting me. It's affecting my life,my mood.
It's hurting too badly. I can't breathe,I can't focus on anything. It's taking control of me. But,so what? I got to learn how to put down everything because I have to.

27 March 2009

2009-03-27T17:26:00.011+08:00

Definitely a nice Friday. Had breakfast in the morning.
As usual(^^) I was the first to reach. Dont know why even if I take
my own sweet time, I still wont be late! Or,I wont be the last.
Maybe I'm a very punctual person by nature. :P

After eating,walked to Tamp stadium. Enjoyed myself with my friends
around! Mainly Irene, Axl, Dean, Jingheng, and not forgetting
Wenkai who asked me to play captain's ball last minute. And I even 'won'
a silver plate without contributing to their second place XP. And of course
the rest of the people present there.

I'll run next year, I guess?! Wants to participate in something before
graduating from the school. Hopefully I will be able to graduate, hahaha.
After everything ended, had a race with Axl, Dean and Jingheng
and I was the last. Boohoo. I'm so slow!

Had our lunch at (picture below), and they came up to my place.
With the idea of playing Hotel626. I was really freaked out on the spot,
but thinking of it now it's not very scary. Because I didn't had
any "imaginations" from yesterday till now!

Went down for basketball after Hotel626. After they left I went for a swim
by myself. Really by myself! I was the only person in the swimming pool.
Long time since I swam, wooo shiok!

Yesterday's probably the best day for the
first week of school! Fridays are always fun and joyous.

2009-03-25T18:46:00.008+08:00

I never know it would hurt, that much.

Friends.

I know I've been very moodless and fucked up these two days.
I'm trying very hard not to throw my temper at anyone, I tried
my best to suppress all my anger and emotions and put on a smile.
Though I didnt really did a good job, but I tried. I really did. I didnt
wanna bother anyone, so I didnt told anyone about what happened.
Plus even if I do, no one can help me. I'm putting in effort, to
not cause any unhappiness in my group of friends. But sometimes,
I wonder how certain people define friendships. I treasure every
friend I have. I know I'm not a very good friend, I dont really
sacrifice much for certain things, I suck at advicing and comforting.
But, at least I know that I have to endure, even if it's too much for me.
Mrs Tan told us on Monday, that true friends are those that are
not afraid to correct your mistakes. And not just tell you your good
points. One may have many friends, friends for only fun and laughter.
But those are not your true friends. Then she asked us,
"So do you have a true friend?" Many thoughts ran through my mind.

I told myself, I have one, in the past. He's someone that I can
rely on for anything. Someone that will scold me, to tell me that
what I did was wrong. He was the greatest friend I ever had, I swear.
But because of one wrong step I made, my life was screwed up from then
on. Even until now. What I'm trying to say is, do you guys really
treasure your friends? Are you a good friend? Ask youself,
what have you done or have you even did anything to sustain the friendships
you're having? Do you only care about yourself, and no one else?
God, think about it. Seriously, do you treat your friends the best way
you can? Or are you just taking friendships lightly?

I'm out of luck today.
Got a scolding from Mum again,and she's not talking to me,
again. I couldn't get my concession when I finally made a
trip to the interchange, "System break down."
I couldn't get the medicine my Mum wants, "You have to be
above 18 to purchase it." What the fuck is this.....

Anyway, thanks Irene and Jingheng for accompanying me
TO AND FRO(looks at Irene^^) tampines to get my things done! :)

2009-03-22T19:38:00.011+08:00

Promises are meant to be broken,really.

"You made the choice yourself, and you live with it."

Remember Mr Goh telling us this in class, kind of long ago. Very true,but not many are able to understand that. Because even after knowing that, humans still do things that will leave them with regrets. Humans are just so...unfathomable(lOl). Anyway, saw this banner outside Temasek Poly "I want to decipher the human mind." while I think the human mind is very hard to decipher!

My duck rice few days ago ^^, me me, and the red sky yesterday I think, respectively. Saw from Jingheng's blog that the sky at his place is also red that day. Hahaha.

School = Hell. Can't stop whining to mum that school ends at 4. Seriously can't stop complaining. It's really very unfair. Why do the students in 304 taking double science doesn't have classes till 4? Initally I thought its because the bio students have to use the classroom. Then why the helll do we have to end at 4?! Ahhhhh, two things I hate going to school.

1. BLOODY EARLY SCHOOL HOURS.
2. SCHOOL ENDS AT 4 ON MONDAY AND TUESDAY

Other than the reasons mentioned above, I love going to school :P
Alright, I'm done with this! Didn't sleep early yesterday night! Boohoo.

*Note to self* Must sleep before 10.30pm tonight!

I think I need some tonics! Keep having giddy spells(LOLOLOL)
Serious! No joke. Drinking soup now wooo

It's the 23rd tomorrow. No longer special.
I have to stop remembering this date.. :(

2009-03-19T17:21:00.006+08:00

I just have to let go, and everything will be fine

I remember what my counsellor, ok you can call her MINE, XD. She asked me, what kind of picture do I have, to represent the current problem I'm facing. Like, what picture do I have to picture me letting go of what I have to let go. I told her, a rope. A thick, brown, strong rope. That is half-way torn apart. And once it snaps, means I've completely put down the past. I think flying a kite is a very good choice too huh. Weewee pampers.

I seriously dont understand why am I writing these stuffs down. LOL

I sooooo want to blog everyday because I CAN EXPRESS MY FEELINGS here. (lOl) But I have no idea on what and how to write it down. (lOl again). I wonder who invented the word (LOL). In long form its, LAUGH OUT LOUD. Yet I, ok maybe not only me, many others, use the word to some sort of like, replace "lame..." or "diao..." Ok wtf. Anyway that's not the point! What I want to say is, I WANT TO BLOG EVERYDAY.

Currently struggling with the dumb and idiotic chinese holiday homework. What's the work about again? My forte? Grrrr, what kind of stupid homework is that. What if people, like me, do not have a single forte?! Huh you tell me. Then I have to cook up a story to tell others I do have a forte. Which is not a fact. Don't you know I HATE TELLING LIES? HM?! meow :P What, who doesn't lie huh. Everyone does it right! See, I've just lied about me hating to lie. Why am I bullshitting here. So ya I'm only a quarter done with my "FORTE HOMEWORK". Gahhh, hate this, really. -HMPH-

Went 201 to sweetsweet with my Mum just now. Eat fish and chips for dinner. Whahaha. I love to wear big tees cos it makes me look like a "fat and no figure-kia!" :O I still still still didnt manage to finish all my homework despite the 7 hours of time I have. Instead, I spend most of my time watching tv and using the comp.

2009-03-18T22:52:00.008+08:00

Love doesn't need to be reminded.

I have a sudden urge to say I love my Mum. -lOl- Even though she's not a mother that make sure her children have their proper three meals, or a mother that cares if I'm coping well with my studies but hopes I could go to JC and eventually University, or one that can understand what I want and need. And maybe she can be so unreasonable at times that I wanna "kill" her. She's still a very nice mum. Mum I lurb you. :)

Anyway, have been thinking hard if I should continue going for counselling. Maybe I should just stop going. I couldn't be relying on others whenever I'm in doubt, or probably need some help and advice right? Sometimes I have to depend on myself, I have to be my own counsellor, right? You know, I think it's time for me to grow up, and really be independent and mature. True? I shouldn't be ranting and ranting, or going about telling others who I like(-_______-), telling others I'm sad or whatever shit. I guess it's better keeping everything to myself hm?

Been going out for three consecutive days and I guess I need to stay at home tomorrow. Let's see, for these three days, I've spent an amount of about..... TWO HUNDRED BUCKS. It's not a really huge amount to some people, but aiya, to me it's quite a lot. Can't really feel the ache though, lOl. Went shopping with Natnat on Monday, shopping with Irene on Tuesday. Plus Irene stayed over at my house. And for today, went cycling/kite-flying/eating with Dean, Axl and Irene. Dont want to elaboate that much. Enjoyed all three days very much. :)

I'm so happy I have 6 new black tee shirts. (weewee)

I like the word lOl. It consists of the small letter of "L", which is "l", at the side and the big "O" in the middle. Isn't it cute? Dont steal ok? Weeeee~

-yummy yummy prawns^^-

2009-03-14T20:11:00.008+08:00

Still finding it difficult to let go.

I couldn't bear to delete my archives, so I moved them to another link.
Clever? Duhhh, it's twt for your info. :O

Anyway, will kind of like start a "new blog" and this will be my first post.
Still keeping these two photos because I love it a lot, hahahah.

Hope I'll not give up this writing-diary habit! :p

and and might be blogging even more often since it's the holidays~

Got woke up by Mr. Bean's text around 8.30
Early huh? Early bird catches the worm.

So I woke up too, and started doing some homework, stupid teachers.
Just a one week holiday and they have to give so many homework.
Especially mother tongue. -GAH I HATE MOTHER TONGUE-

Got tempted to watch x-family after awhile. lOl
-great I got my contact lens this afternoon! :D-

no idea how to continue this post, just end of with one sentence!

EXCITED FOR THIS 1-WEEK HOLIDAY!